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Sunday, March 29, 2009

My Favorite Book

Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte is my all time favorite book and even though I have read it more times then I can count I still get something new from it every time. This time I found this passage, spoken by Jane Eyre herself (chapter 28):

"Worn out with this torture of thought, I rose to my knees. Night was come, and her planets were risen: a safe, still night; too serene for the companionship of fear. We know that God is everywhere; but certainly we feel His presence most when His works are on the grandest scale spread before us; and it is in the unclouded night-sky, where His worlds wheel their silent course, that we read clearest His infinitude, His omnipotence, His omnipresence. I had risen to my knees to pray for Mr. Rochester. Looking up, I, with teardimmed eyes, saw the mighty Milky Way. Remembering what it was—what countless systems there swept space like a soft trace of light—I felt the might and strength of God. Sure was I of His efficiency to save what He had made: convinced I grew that neither earth should perish, nor one of the souls it treasured. I turned my prayer to thanksgiving: the Source of Life was also the Savior of spirits. Mr. Rochester was safe; he was God's, and by God would he be guarded. I again nestled to the breast of the hill; and ere long, in sleep, forgot sorrow."

Friday, March 20, 2009


This post is a little delayed but being out of the country makes blogging a little harder. So here we go... I crashed my motorcycle. It's been a little over a week since then and my skin and foot are healing ok. But before I get into that let's explain my stupidity. =) I had just got off of work and was heading home last Thursday and I decided to go in between a car in the turn lane and a car that was trying to get in the turn lane. There was plenty of space so that wasn't the problem really... It was the pedestrian in the crosswalk. I was coming out of the turn I made in between the cars and saw the guy. I realized that if I straitened out I would hit him so I swerved and braked (without pulling in the clutch) to avoid that catastrophe. Herein lies the rub. A few things... you don't swerve when already in a swerve or turn... you don't brake without the clutch... and you look around more on a motorcycle in the first place. So yeah, I didn't hit the guy but I did slide out. After fishtailing and crashing the poor kid picked my bike up off my leg and I showed him how to put the kickstand down. I apologized, told him I was fine and said he could leave. It was super embarrassing and I didn't really want him sticking around. =) Anyway I called a few people and Caitlin showed up to take me to the health center. Then Ashlee came to take my bike to the parking lot (turns out she doesn't know how to ride clutch so that didn't work =). On top of my two friends though, all my buddies from the University Police Department (UPD) showed up too. I was so embarrassing to hear the parking officer on his radio saying "We have one of our CSO's (I work for the UPD in parking) here. She crashed her bike." This call brought Officer Reilley, the cop I talk to a lot and know pretty well, as well as two other parking officers I know and my boss (he had to ride my bike back to the structure). I convinced them a fire truck was not necessary and Ashlee and I rode in the parking buggie (the UPD golf cart) to the health center. After x-rays of my foot, some painful cleaning of scrapes (I lost a few pieces of skin on my foot and hand) and the nurses reprimanding me for being on the phone with people (word travels fast and people were calling to check on me) I left the health center with a wrap on my foot and a snazzy cane. My foot has been doing some weird popping stuff that past few days but the Australian humidity healed my skin pretty well. =) The damage on my bike was minimal. Other then a completely destroyed windshield and a few scrapes on the handlebars it is good to go. I hit my head so my helmet has some scrapes but my foot and knees got the worst of it. I definitely learned some lessons (despite what Laura thinks) through the experience that I will need to continually remind myself of. Anyway, later that night in my last final, after being driven there by Caitlin (my friends rock by the way, they helped with ice and Laura gave me a lecture =), I realized how much God had his hand in it. I could have broken my foot or really hurt someone or myself. He protected every part of the situation and he deserves all the credit. I just can't believe it took me a few hours for this to dawn on me. Overall, My foot is almost normal and my bruises and scrapes are healing nicely. =)

Monday, March 16, 2009

Potatos, Spuds, and Tubers

Yesterday was basically insane, in both a good and bad way. My stress level yesterday was through the roof from about 3 to 6. Let me explain. I planned an event for Poly Canyon where people could come and make dinner for the homeless shelter. I went shopping with my boss and we bought enough potatoes to make twice baked potatoes for 130 homeless people. So 3:30 hits, the start time for the program, and I start cutting and mixing the insides of the potatoes (they were baked beforehand by a few different people) and start praying, literally, that people will show up. Long story short only a few people came made some potatoes and left. So I'm all by myself with a kitchen swamped with spuds and two hours to make a whole meal for people who deserve an awesome dinner. Part of the way into this Caitlin called to tell me her car would be unable to transport the food (adding to my stress level). When I explained that I was in Potato Panic mode my amazing friends rushed to my rescue and saved the day. They were phenomenal! We dominated that kitchen and pumped out enough potatoes to feed every person twice over. Cheese, milk and sour cream were flying but it was great. In other words, 130+ potatoes, five Jamba Juices (my way of thanking my friends, through food), and two trips later we had all the food at the shelter and were serving it faster then we could get everything on the plates.
The main thing that hit me was God's hand in the whole process. I had been praying the whole time for him to pull it off and it wasn't till we reached the shelter, met the amazing people we got to serve, and saw the willing hands that helped us set up that I realized God made it happen. It was so worth the stress and bustle of preparing the food to be blessed by the homeless people we met. They were so grateful for the simple things we brought them and they wanted to badly to engage us in conversation and be a part of the process. I was so blessed by my friends, the helpers at the shelter and the homeless people. He continues to amaze me every day with the hearts of people in my life. He has also been showing me how much he works in people and how we really are all made in his image. He is in every part of my life and slowly he is revealing his power in all aspects of my relationships.

Sunday, March 15, 2009


My Nervous Laugh. I made him pause before piercing my nose after he had already started the process. =) Good ole' Jeremiah. I was so excited i gave him a hug after. haha It was great, little me with a girly jewel in my nose hugging a huge dude with his septum pierced and his arms all tatted up.

So... we are crazy and spontaneous. =) On Thursday night, when Cassie and Sydney showed up for a visit, we were talking about nose piercings and realized that Sydney, Laura and I all wanted them. So naturally we got super excited and formed plans to aquire said holes the next day. $50 and a gazillion nervous laughs later, my face is now a jewelry store (according to Cassie's boyfriend). I am very proud of myself for not crying but I had two people I had to be brave for who went after me. We all did really well despite the fact that Laura almost cut off the circulation in my thumb from squeezing my hand so hard. =) While my nose is pretty sore today (the third day) I love it! Anyway, that's the newest additon to my life and will be probably be the last addition in this fashion.
The end result!!!

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Dresses and Heels

I bought snacks for everyone during the getting ready process. We were fancy with strawberries and martinelli's. =) Aubrea provided the "Getting Ready" CD she made full of 80's and girly music. Oh and shout out to the Pottery Barn dishes my mom bought me! =)
Carly is a genius make-up artist. I love getting my makeup done since I can't do any of that myself. =)

Just a small glimpse of the stuff it takes to get ready for an event like this. =P

It's Official. Dressing up just isn't what it used to be. While I love hanging out with my girls and getting ready and all that, I think I am going to stick with my regular clothes. =) We were all so glad to be back in jeans and shirts after Night at the Oscars! It really was a fun night though with all of my buddies. =)

We had a group of about 11 that all went to dinner at CPK beforehand and that was super fun, not to mention delicioso. I wore my high, high heels for dinner and by the end of that I changed into my TOMS which were a much better option. The actual event was great! Some of the movies that people made were genius and there were some really funny ones, such as Twilight and Manly Men. (For all of you who don't know what Night at the Oscars is, it's an event where everyone dresses up like they are attending the Oscars and you watch movies made by your peers and there are awards at the end.) We took pictures, a ton of them of course, at the end and then headed home to change into comfortable clothes. We were feeling epic at this point and wanted to play games or do something exciting but we ended up just hanging out at Jon's house for a couple hours and were all in bed by 1:30pm. (This is actually early compared to all the late nights we have been having.) So once again I am back in jeans and a sweatshirt but at least I got to wear my prom dress one more time. =)

Notice the TOMS amidst all of the fancy shoes. =)

I am not sure what was going on but I was laughing about something.

Friday, March 6, 2009

Two for Two

So I got another pair of TOMS (this time without the tax return, this pair came from the good ole paycheck). They are pretty wild but I love them! They fit totally different then the canvas ones I have but they are just as comfortable. I watched some videos on the shoe drops they do when giving the kids their sets of shoes (they don't drop the shoes out of planes or anything, they hand them out =). It really impacted me. I registered both of my pairs to maybe have the chance to join a shoe drop in Argentina! That would be amazing but for now I will just be praying for the kids that will receive the shoes I bought. =)

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Our Generation

So I decided to make my own list for our generation after reading my grandma’s email:

1. YouTube didn't exist yet.
2. Disposable Cameras were cool.
3. Pop rocks were all the rage.
4. You played with Pokemon cards, tech decks, and yo yo's.
5. Facebook was only for college students.
6. Ipods didn't have color screens or pictures.
7. VHS tapes.
8. Portable CD players/ walkmans.
9. Cars with manual windows (this being your only option).
10. Recording television involved setting up a video camera in front of the TV (and by camera I mean the camera held a VHS tape).
11. Tape Decks.
12. Rocket Power and Doug.
13. Polly Pockets the size of your fingernail.
14. Car cell phones the size of your face. (for emergencies)
15. Cell Phones without camera capabilities.

If you experienced 1-5 of these things you are in middle school.
If you experienced 1-10 of these things you may have reached high school.
If you experienced 1-15 of these things you are definitely in college. =)

What "outdated" things do you remember?

A few recent additions I thought of:
TY Beanie Babies
Bop It
Skip its
Scrunchies ( with fake hair on them)
Butterfly Clips

The Good Ole Days

My grandma sent me this forward yesterday and I thought it was really interesting. It really made me think. It was definitely a simpler (and in my opinion better) time. I sometimes wish we could go back to jukeboxes instead of Ipods and three channels of good wholesome TV and unrated movies instead of the thousands of horrible options we have now. It makes me sad but we have good things in our generation too. I'll just have to look for them. =) Anyway here is my Grandma's email and then the forward she sent.

Hi Steph:
I thought maybe this would be of interest to you. I remember every one of the following. I lived it. Now I know that I AM older than dirt.

*I deleted the beginning to save space. But basically a little boy asked his grandma what her favorite fast food place as a kid was and she explained they didn’t have fast food. The little boy laughed uncontrollably as she explained this (here begins the forward):*
'Mom cooked every day and when Dad got home from work, we sat down together at the dining room table, and if I didn't like what she put on my plate I was allowed to sit there until I did like it.’ By this time, the kid was laughing so hard I was afraid he was going to suffer serious internal damage, so I didn't tell him the part about how I had to have permission to leave the table.

But here are some other things I would have told him about my childhood if I figured his system could have handled it :
1. Some parents NEVER owned their own house, wore Levis, set foot on a golf course, traveled out of the country or had a credit card. In their later years they had something called a revolving charge card. The card was good only at Sears Roebuck. Or maybe it was Sears & Roebuck. Either way, there is no Roebuck anymore. Maybe he died.
2. My parents never drove me to soccer practice. This was mostly because we never had heard of soccer. I had a bicycle that weighed probably 50 pounds, and only had one speed, (slow).
3. We didn't have a television in our house until I was 19. It was, of course, black and white, and the station went off the air at midnight, after playing the national anthem and a poem about God; it came back on the air at about 6 a.m. and there was usually a locally produced news and farm show on, featuring local people.
4. I was 21 before I tasted my first pizza; it was called 'pizza pie. When I bit into it, I burned the roof of my mouth and the cheese slid off, swung down, plastered itself against my chin and burned that, too. It's still the best pizza I ever had.
5. I never had a telephone in my room. The only phone in the house was in the living room and it was on a party line. Before you could dial, you had to listen and make sure some people you didn't know weren't already using the line.
6. Pizzas were not delivered to our home. But milk was.
7. All newspapers were delivered by boys and all boys delivered newspapers --my brother delivered a newspaper, six days a week. It cost 7 cents a paper, of which he got to keep 2 cents. He had to get up at 6AM every morning. On Saturday, he had to collect the 42 cents from his customers. His favorite customers were the ones who gave him 50 cents and told him to keep the change. His least favorite customers were the ones who seemed to never be home on collection day.
8. Movie stars kissed with their mouths shut. At least, they did in the movies. There were no movie ratings because all movies were responsibly produced for everyone to enjoy viewing, without profanity or violence or most anything offensive.

Growing up isn't what it used to be, is it?
How many do you remember?

Head lights dimmer switches on the floor.
Ignition switches on the dashboard.
Heaters mounted on the inside of the fire wall.
Real ice boxes.
Pant leg clips for bicycles without chain guards.
Soldering irons you heat on a gas burner.
Using hand signals for cars without turn signals.

Older Than Dirt Quiz :
Count all the ones that you remember not the ones you were told about. Ratings at the bottom.

1. Blackjack chewing gum & Teaberry also (my favs)
2.Wax Coke-shaped bottles with colored sugar water
3. Candy cigarettes
4. Soda pop machines that dispensed glass bottles
5. Coffee shops or diners with tableside juke boxes
6. Home milk delivery in glass bottles with cardboard stoppers
7. Party lines on the telephone
8. Newsreels before the movie
9. P .F. Flyers
10. Butch wax
11. TV test patterns that came on at night after the last show and were there until TV shows started again in the morning. (there were only 3 channels [if you were fortunate])
12. Peashooters
13. Howdy Doody
14. 45 RPM records
15. S& H greenstamps
16. Hi-fi's
17. Metal ice trays with lever
18. Mimeograph paper
19. Blue flashbulb
20. Packards
21. Roller skate keys
22. Cork popguns
23. Drive-ins
24. Studebakers
25. Wash tub wringers

If you remembered 0-5 = You're still young
If you remembered 6-10 = You are getting older
If you remembered 11-15 = Don't tell your age
If you remembered 16-25 = You're older than dirt!
I might be older than dirt but those memories are some of the best parts of my life.

Hi again;
When I sent the first email half of the words came up on spell check. They are so out of date the computer dictionary doesn't even know them. That is a hoot!!!

*I am definitely young. =) I remember two and three from being a kid and reproductions of some of the other things but for the most part there were a lot of things I had never even heard of. =)*

Tuesday, March 3, 2009


Recent observations from riding:
1. SLO smells really good after it rains. It’s very refreshing.
2. My life is very fragile. I have become much more defensive in my riding since realizing this.
3. Speeding is really easy and I am getting more comfortable with my bike so I have to watch the speedometer even more.
4. It isn’t really as cold as you think it is until you get on a motorcycle. I definitely have a new appreciation for being cold and a new ability to deal with it. I’m the only one to blame if I don’t bring enough layers.
5. I also have a new appreciation for being wet. I have learned to dress for whatever the sky decides to throw my way. For example, I carried rain boots around with me all day yesterday in case it started raining. I wanted to be dry for my audition if it rained on my way back from worship practice.
6. The gas mileage I get is great! I love filling up for less then five dollars. (When I have to that is... I have to give a shout out to my Grandpa who pays for my gas every time I see him.)
7. The shorter my hair is the better the helmet hair is. If I have short curls my helmet has nothing to flatten. They can just chill out in the top of my helmet. =)
8. I wish I had more time to take longer rides. We live in such a beautiful place and I don’t get to enjoy that on my bike enough.
9. I am blessed to live in San Luis Obispo. Even driving to Rite Aid is gorgeous and the grade is beautiful! Plus there is motorcycle parking everywhere here so it’s extremely easy to get around.
10. I am blessed to have friends who worry so much about my safety on my motorcycle. =) They are a constant reminder to me to drive safe and be smart about the way I ride.
11. I love riding a motorcycle and while a car would be more convenient sometimes, I think I will always have a bike handy even when I get a car.

An update on the musical…

I didn’t get a callback but I am totally ok with that. I let God have the chance to use me and he did. My schedule with practice everyday would have been insane. Well, close to impossible. Here are a few reasons for this:
1. Time: Worship team is my biggest commitment and it comes before everything else on my calendar. We might have practice on Sunday next quarter for the band and that would have made another day of Musical Practice impossible (with my staff meeting and Big Crusade every other week that makes three out of the five days of practice not fit in my schedule).
2. CA Stuff: With all of the programs, desk shifts, and meetings I have to go to I don’t think it would all fit without me having a meltdown. =)
3. Sleep: Judging by the amount of sleep I have been getting on the weekends staying up late every night of the week for practice would not be very helpful. Especially when I have work early in the morning twice a week.
4. Friends: I don’t think I would ever see them!
5. Jesus: He has his hand in this and I know that whatever he has planned for me instead is going to be amazing! =)

Monday, March 2, 2009


So.... I tried out for a musical today. The Phantom Tollbooth. It is the first musical Cal Poly has done so I figured why not? Plus my friend Aubrea, an amazing actress, asked me if I would like to do it with her so I went along for the ride. The audition called for two contrasting pieces of music (16 bars each) so I sang parts of "I'm Not That Girl" from Wicked and "Deadwood Stage" from Calamity Jane. The singing was easy after practicing with Aubrea and having Jon teach me how to count out the measures. They even asked Aubrea and I to sing Twinkle Twinkle Little Star for them after the three in my group all sang. That made me feel better about it. =) I had no idea what I was getting myself into however... When we showed up today they gave us scripts for cold readings and told us we would be doing some form of dance/movement for the audition.

So cold readings. Being a COMS major helped a ton so I wasn't too nervous for that but that fact that I am not a actress showed next to the two girls I tried out with. And movement. That was very interesting but since we all thought it was strange I don't feel too bad about that. We had to act like we were being pulled and pushed through space using different parts of our body (at the same time). It was crazy. =)
Overall, I am so glad I did it. I find out tomorrow if I have a callback... which would also be tomorrow. The main thing that got me through the whole process was Jon's voice in my head telling me to just breath! and Jesus. He can use this experience however he wants but at least I gave him the opportunity to use me. If I hadn't tried out then I wouldn't even be giving God the chance to work through this musical. So it is in his hands which is wonderful! I'll let you all know what that means tomorrow! =)