A couple weeks ago my devotional time had a theme: not feeling sufficient. And how only when we recognize that we are complete sinners, does grace enter in and make us ready and able.
Spurgeon writes, "When a man sees himself to be altogether lost and ruined [...] and pleads guilty before the Lord, then he is clean through the blood of Jesus, and the grace of God. [...] Nothing is moe deadly than self-righteousness, or more hopeful than contrition. [...] Oh thou poor leprous sinner, utterly destitute of a sound spot, take heart from the text and come and thou art to Jesus - 'For let our debts be what they may, however great or small, As soon as we have nought to pay, our Lord forgives us all.'"
My C.S. Lewis, Narnia devo also touched on this topic. The passage was about how Caspian was only ready to lead once he admitted that he was not sufficient to be King. Then in my "Spiritual Leadership" book it talked about needing to be humble and sacrificial in leadership. In this book, Samuel Brengle describes leadership as, "[...] not won by promotion, but by many prayers and tears. It is attained by confession of sin, and much heart-searching and humbling before God; by self-surrender, a courageous sacrifice or every idol, a hold uncomplaining embrace of the cross, and by eternally looking unto Jesus crucified."
So what is the point of all this? I was able to make a list of all the ways I need to be humbled as a leader and recognize I have nothing to offer apart from what God has done for me. I was woken up to the fact that leadership is nothing to do with my qualifications or abilities but rather everything to do with God's sufficiency and power. It was humbling in the best way.
A quick story to go with this... the leader of the Culiacán Project, Chucho, is an incredible disciple of the Lord and his heart is often broken for the lost around him. One night we were having a time of prayer and he broke down before the Lord. After hearing his sobs, his precious daughter, Sara-Jael, came up to him and laid her hands on him and started praying. This little girl has been watching her dad be faithful to pray for people under his leadership for years, and when he was humbled before God she emulated his faith to pray for him. We are not sufficient. But with God, and the body of believers he places around us, we are more than able to accomplish everything God calls us to do. Sara, at three years old, gets that. I will never forget this picture of encouragement and God's provision.